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The Lowdown

Welcome to your Lowdown. A place to express, create and learn about your own mental wellbeing. 

Welcome tothe Lowdown. A place where you can express, create and learn about mental wellbeing. 

Your Lowdown | The Lowdown Aotearoa 

Your Lowdown

I've spent so long trying to right my wrongs 
With every line spit a new envisionment of a poem 
Guess that's what I get for trying to fix all this on my own 
Like I'm tripping on emotions trying to move on alone 
But even that depends still 
I really 
Spend so long trying to right my wrongs 
And that I try write and recite
A stutter of the tongue they come out short
A product of pay tolls
My shortcomings only raise and my rage told me
And my emotions are still trying to catch up sometime
And destiny still hasn’t got that time rolled in
That escapade slowly fades forwards
Or I misplayed, treating my heartbreaks like an art form 
On display, 
waiting on my reign like a downpour 
And this may lead to me portraying a dark horse 
Try to get it up the right way, 
I was raised in the south, poor 
Life's a fight or that's just something I'm told 
Keep your head down and learn how to roll with the blows 
And only punch up if you aim for the throat 
Cos you will get rocked just for thinking you're bold 
So give me OSCARS, my performance was impeccable 
Became a wordsmith to keep crying out of my schedule 
Followed in footsteps now fresh prints are undetectable 
My trauma being plated... only because I made it all digestable 
Kept it a G
I couldn’t come up with the pesos
I’m blessed that babyfaces kept my fire lit
Been through more than two L’s
Yet J has taught me how to keep my cool
Music melded my mana made mafagafaga
I take a break
Take a breath with no hope in it
Made so many poems I think I destroyed my own image 
Disconnect from all my trauma so I can cope with it 
Now I can't feel sad the same because I wrote with it 
My mental state messing up the state of this house
Home. Roof. Rental Space
And with a rugged rough roof
Everything under that lays stays cold
Though sometime me and my mental race 
Is often paced slow
Flow switch when I'm most withered, don't reach out 
Xanny'll go phantom and ghost it, 
I freak out 
But then I'll make a poetry post with it and geek out 
Funny how spoken word is the only time that I speak out 

I’ve spent so long trying to heal
But all I can do is seal my emotions in an ongoing wheel
storing it all up hoping time will steal
the pain away.
 I’m a healer 
But not for myself 
cause the Fa’a Sāmoa way 
says service to others will make everything okay.
So maybe today I’ll help someone find their way 
Cause maybe if I pay
it forward I’ll be met halfway 
by the smiles I see on faces everywhere.
But I’m uncertain cause 
I’ve fallen into a dark pattern of people pleasing 
where being satisfied by applause is the closest, I get to feeling affection.
I wanna feel affection 
maybe that’s all I ever wanna feel
just real
love 
and after a day of hard shove 
I want to fall into the same arms that birthed me 
and be reminded 
it’s okay
try again 
rewrite this poem without the traumatic experience of self-betrayal 
replace it with the way you are dramatic and unapologetic in your own self portrayal.
Because the only way to overcome hate
and break through that mental gate 
is to love.

Spoken Word Poetry Workshop by Zech Soakai

Learn how to express yourself and share your thoughts and feelings through the art of poetry, in this easy to follow spoken word workshop hosted by Zech Soakai.  

Zech is a published poet who began learning his craft in community open mics held out across South Auckland and stands on the shoulders of many giants before him. 
His work can be read in the anthologies: Rapture: An Anthology of Performance Poetry from Aotearoa/New Zealand & Katūīvei: A New Anthology of Contemporary Oceanic Pacific Aotearoa New Zealand poets. His work can also be seen at Tāmaki Paenga Hira (Auckland War Memorial Museum) & digitally on YouTube.

Learn how to express yourself and share your thoughts and feelings through the art of poetry, in this easy to follow spoken word workshop hosted by Zech Soakai.  

Spoken Word Poetry Workshop - Zech Soakai | The Lowdown Aotearoa

Spoken Word Poetry Workshop - Zech Soakai

Te kore, Te po, Te ao Marama by Ivy Lyden-Hancy

In Te kore, Te po, Te ao Marama, 17-year-old poet Ivy Lyden-Hancy's words speak to her identity as a wahine Māori in a changing world. Surrounded by the lasting impacts of colonisation, Ivy paints a picture of the Aotearoa that was, and that one day could be.

In Te kore, Te po, Te ao Marama, poet Ivy Lyden-Hancy's words speak to her identity as a wahine Māori in a changing world.

Te kore, Te po, Te ao Marama - Ivy Lyden-Hancy | The Lowdown Aotearoa

Te kore, Te po, Te ao Marama - Ivy Lyden-Hancy

i walk through concrete rivers 
Wairoa lingering through powerlines
surrounded by rakau 
which has been manufactured 
manipulated 
into the warmth of one’s home 
many homes 
white picket fences and 
sky tower brown 

as i look up to pukekiwiriki 
laying at the sickle of this maunga 
i imagine i am my tupuna
our tangata from before
surrounded by rakau of lush forests 
While melodies of te manu engulf me in its mana 
While wahine moving through grub and fern 
stripping the white man's grass off all infinite crossways 
i replace it with kowhai 
                                  pohutakawa 
                   kauri
pikopiko
all things Māori 

to be Māori is to imagine aotearoa before colonisation 
to be grounded amongst papa 
amongst the kumara pits
their flagstaff will fall 
a tohu that we have taken our whenua back 
our tikanga 
our tangata
holy hands of concrete statues will reach out to me 
amongst the rubble
 they will speak reo pakeha 
a constant reminder of what they have taken from us 

in that we will remove the ink of our ta moko
unbury the mass graves 
remove our taonga from the museums 
reclaim our reo 

they will be at the end of our pū
our rangatira behind us on the path they have paved 
tapu tinana 
tapu wairoa 
aotearoa te tapu whenua 
amene

In 'A Body Apology', 16-year-old Angelina Faupula addresses the struggles that we face to accept our bodies with their flaws and differences, the impact of a society that tells us that only their version of 'perfect' is acceptable. 

In 'A Body Apology', Angelina Faupula addresses the struggles that we face to accept our bodies with their flaws and differences, the impact of a society that tells us that only their version of 'perfect' is acceptable.

A Body Apology - Angelina Faupula | The Lowdown Aotearoa

A Body Apology - Angelina Faupula

Iho u’afa sisu kalaisi
in his name 
formless yet formed us 
in his image

But the image I see is not what I like 
And these thighs i see are too big 
And this face i have is not small enough 
And the stomach that I have is not small enough
Expect me to trust a mirror that only sees skin deep 
A mirror that responds only with what it sees 
But doesn’t learn how i've carried myself 

Confusion stench 
Wondering why people mock 
Gods greatest creation 
Judgemental outcomes of envious lions 
And tigers claw scratches 
On our hips 

The reflection of the sea 
Embedded deeply into my skin 
That rips through 
This sacred temple 

Sacred 
‒‒a word only given to women 
To hide the fact they do not want you to see all of them 
Tremble in fear incase giving pieces of them will break a part of us 

To camouflage this God given gift 
they replace with hate they have for this body 
The same body that's carried the weight of my heart 
Even when my legs were giving up 

But even still
We criticise this imperfection that makes even the angels jealous 
My body scarred with more comment than scars 
I’ve apologised more times in my head then i have out loud 
But i get you’ve never gotten an official apology 

So I apologise to this body that was made by god
But still somehow not made to feel like it was enough
I apologise to this body for the moments I have forgotten to give gratitude
To the quiet times it has held me up

I apologise to this body for all the lies that I took as truths

My body is not an apology
And I will no longer apologise

Tapu Vā

Brown Girls Have Sex Too creator and sexual health educator Anatola joins us to talanoa more about her mahi facilitating safe spaces for conversations around sexual health. She shares more about her interview with RenewsNZ, in which she addresses misconceptions about the hymen and debunks sex myths like the white sheet ceremony, which have been practised in some Tongan and Kiribati communities since colonial times and more. Anatola also encourages more young Pasifika women to consider roles in sexual health spaces because there is such a demand for them in the field.

Tapu Vā - Anatola

A group of Pasifika from the 09’ Tāmaki Makaurau join us to talanoa about sexual health. They cover a wide range of topics, including some common Pasifika myths and their relationship with colonialism, their own experiences with ‘the talk’ and the sexual toxic traits prevalent in our Pasifika sports communities. The group also delves into an overarching theme of changing the narrative surrounding how Pasifika approach sexual health, as well as some ideas for removing the stigma or tapu from the subject so it can be openly talked about.

Tapu Vā - Auckland Talanoa

We’re joined by Matt, who gives us insights about his mahi as a sexual health promoter for Te Kaha O Te Rangatahi. Matt shares about the concept of consent and how it should be addressed more often because it can be a grey area in our Pasifika communities. Matt emphasises the importance of discussing healthy communication and relationships in order to create that vā, that ‘safe space’ for whānau and future generations. He also has a special message at the end for his teenage self about sexual health.

Matt, a sexual health promoter from Te Kaha O Te Rangatahi, shares insights on promoting sexual health in Pasifika communities. Learn about consent, healthy communication, and creating safe space for whānau and future generations.

Tapu Vā: Matt Talks Sexual Health | The Lowdown Aotearoa 

Tapu Vā - Matt

We talanoa with sexual health promoter Samora about her upbringing and her own experience with coming out as her authentic self. She shares her expertise on the relationship between sexual health and Pasifika culture, highlighting how thoughts and attitudes around the connection between the two are strongly influenced by faith, pride and image. Samora also shares some important advice for Pasifika parents who are interested in learning more.

Tapu Vā - Samora

Three Pasifika District Health Board workers from Hastings join us to share their views on sexual health. They talanoa about the idea of reframing cultural beliefs, such as the Samoan word ‘tautua’ (service to aiga or any individual to a greater cause), in a way that suits sexual health, the difference between discussing the topic with parents vs. schoolmates and the barriers to discussing sexual health within your whānau, as well as ideas on how to overcome them.
 

Join three Pasifika District Health Board workers from Hastings as they discuss their views on sexual health. Learn about reframing cultural beliefs, discussing sexual health and whānau and schoolmates, and overcoming barriers to promote sexual health. 

Tapu Vā: Pasifika Workers Talk Sexual Health | The Lowdown Aotearoa 

Tapu Vā - Hastings Talanoa

Ever since she was a young child Callida knew she was different to everybody else in her life, but for years she didn't understand what that meant for her. Watch the video to hear Callida share her journey, beginning as a rangatahi, toward understanding and owning her identity as a proud trans wāhine.

Join Callida on her journey towards self-discovery and owning her identity as a proud trans wāhine.

Manioro: Callida's Story | The Lowdown Aotearoa 

Callida's Story

Arataua Media 

We travel down the path to self-love this episode of AI. Our panellists kōrero whare tapawhā, self-care methods and techniques and more. Māori & Pasifika business owner Arby Manukau talk more to the subject, sharing her personal journey, what self-love means and advice to others on doing the inner work. 

Our panellists discuss where tapawhā, self-care methods and techniques. Arby Manukau, a Māori & Pasifika business owner, shares her personal journey and advice on doing the inner work. 

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