I've been depressed for so long that I can't even remember what being happy feels like. I think it started when my parents split up six years ago. The family feud that followed and the death of my grandfather shortly after made it impossible for me to heal and my sadness manifested into depression. I've put up with this feeling of helpless emptiness ever since, wearing a fake smile everyday until I had gotten so good at hiding my emotions that even those close to me never suspected a thing. Finally, I spoke to a man with bi-polar disorder and he convinced me to get help. I was diagnosed with major depression three weeks ago and was prescribed an antidepressant. Finally, I told my family what I'd previously been so ashamed to admit to myself. While I'm still waiting for this medication to work it's magic, I can say without a doubt that telling someone takes a weight off your shoulders. You don't have to be alone in this. Build a support group of people you feel comfortable talking to and discuss the things that bring you down. I guarantee that it's better than sitting alone.
I've hit my limit and don't know how else to deal with it
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Dough >> 13/10/2014 1:54pm
I think I've always been wired this way; as in, headed toward depression. But I've always been able to brush it off and move on. I never believed in depression being a condition until now. This past year has been absolute hell and I'm finally adressing it as what it is. I study a full time medical course within the army and a couple of months into my second semester (march) I came down with glandular fever. This affected my study a lot as I would fall asleep all the time. I also met my current partner the same month and we fell so hard for each other. Funny enough, she had an affair 3 months in. I took her back after a little while (which is not like me). I know I did the right thing because our relationship has never been better. The only thing is, a part of me just wont let go of it- the girls face just pops into my mind randomly all the time. Exercise use to be my way of channelling my stress but I can hardly even do that now. It's hard because I also have scoliosis which makes it even harder to keep fit for my job. I am currently repeating a semester because most of this stuff happened right in the middle of exams. I also forgot to mention that I took on 3 young step children when entering this relationship which is quite a stressor in itself. I have just hit my absolute quota and dont know how to deal with any of it anymore. Self help strategies dont help, and neither do anti-depressants or counselling. I just want my old self back. I'm normally the clown of the group but im sick of acting like im happy these days. Sorry if this is all over the place but it wouldnt let me go back and edit it
tripley >> 16/10/2014 12:31am
Sounds like you just need to take a breather! Like, maybe you should put your life on hold for a while to just regain your energy and resolve to deal with everything that you are handling right now. I'm not suggesting you frop everything you have and run off into the sunset alone, but maybe take the weekends off to rest instead of hanging around your friends etc. Maybe this will allow you to rethink everything and the direction of your life, look at everything in a new light?
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jf01 >> 05/10/2014 11:26am
I've been depressed quite badly before. I feel good at the moment, no anxiety or depression that I can identify. But I have been having depressing dreams. They are often about when I was at high school a few years ago. I feel the same as I did then and people are telling me I seem depressed. I wake up feeling depressed too. Has anyone else had an experience like this? I almost feel like I want to be depressed during the day so it matches my dreams.
tripley >> 16/10/2014 12:21am
Dreams can be indicative of your current internal problems that you may not be aware of. If perhaps there is truly no problem in your life, it could be the general environment that you find yourself in. The best method to deal with this would be to just ignore how these dreams are making you feel and focus on the positives in your life right now. :)
life has turned upside down
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rosetovi >> 11/10/2014 8:36pm
Hey there, I had my 2nd child in december last year then my father passed away in february this year and from that day i have just felt really weird. I went to the doctors they told me that im going through depression, they gave me these antideppresant tablets i think they are called and told me to take it but i did not take them because i was afraid it would harm my child as he is breastfeesing since birth but they told me it wont harm my child but i still scared to take them because of the side effects they told me about which scared me so up until now i havent taken them tablets but i really want to get better because since this has happened to me i dont spend alot of time with my husband and 2boys, i find myself to be lazy alot and just sit around, my heads just spinning alot which is annoying and i find my life right now just upsetting because i dont do what i always do with my family before now its just stay home and be a no life. I want to get a job but my brains just not thinking when i have interviews. SO PLEASE HELP ME I WANT MY LIFE BACK FOR MY FAMILYS FUTURE :(
pressures of life
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wellingtonj >> 08/10/2014 9:10pm
Recently I have been feeling run-down and inadequate. I have been sick the past two weeks with drowsyness and a cough. I am at University and not feeling well. Last week it was just announced that we had a assignment due in two days- being sick it only made it worse.
I also commuted for five years 40 minutes to school everyday and found myself isolated from the school community and like I was the odd one out.
I met a guy and he made me feel normal for a while but then I found out he cheated on me with his ex girlfriend. This only increased my anxiety and made me not want to go to school. I felt paranoid people were talking about me as others knew about it. It was a public issue that should have been private.
I tell people how I feel but it's like they hear me but they're not listening.
Any help would be great.
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Billy >> 22/05/2014 11:17am
Every now and again I have a breakdown and the next day or so later i am happy as Larry and then over the next week or 2 i start feeling lonely and down and then ill start crying for no good reason. Then i try to talk to someone about it and I cant say anything, no words come out. So i end up leaving it at that and I will come right again??? Its just a vicious cycle.
wozzybear >> 11/09/2014 9:02am
I too feel exactly what you said it is a viscious cycle but I tell you what with patience and belive me you need it regular excerice and someone just to give you a hug you will feel better but go and get help.
ToriGrace >> 22/09/2014 8:48pm
The up and down is a real struggle especially when the happiness come with a kind of forgetfulness, with talking about it with others I found if you write it out first and get what you are feeling in words it makes it easier to explain. Even if you can only find the courage to say 'hey sometimes i feel depressed and its really starting to affect me'. You dont have to tell all the details straight away just begin the conversation with someone. But leaving it or waiting for the next breakdown isnt a good way to live, asking for help is the first step.
Shayla_wilson >> 08/10/2014 9:41am
I feel acutlally the same. Your not alone Billy!
What are some helpful tips to get over depression
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emzz >> 05/10/2014 10:04pm
Im really sick at the momment so going out for run or doing execrise is not option until I get better. I have to stay at home most days with limited vists from friends and family.
I really want to kick depression so I can start to get better before the next term starts as I have already missed alot of school
Am I depressed or what?
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Leee >> 06/09/2014 1:52am
Ever since I've had my baby girl @ 17 years old have I've been noticing these feelings...Don't get me wrong I love my baby girl more than anything. She makes me smile no matter what...but when I'm alone it I start to drown in my own inner emotions...
I can't concentrate on school work!
I can't think clearly!
I cry when I think of my 'friend' who barely have visited me or asked me how I am since having baby!
I feel so alone in the friend department!
And to top it off I left my babies daddy a while back and I don't regret it but I do find it hard being a single mother!
Some nights I cry just thinking of this all...I feel like i'm really letting down my parents and my baby girl somehow. I feel like I'm this thing that is barely holding it together only for her little family.
What I saying is that without my daughter...well, I don't think I'll be able to handle it being alone...the stress and expectations and feeling unloved or uncared for is taking its toll on me every minute...every second.
Just saying all this feels pathetic. Maybe I should just stop dwelling...and just think about my baby. Just thinking of her has made me smile, She is most definetly my lifeline.
tripley >> 03/10/2014 11:16pm
I think that what you're doing is really admirable, and though you can't see it now, I believe that there is a great future ahead for you. Maybe things seem hard now, but you are in no way a failure. In fact, the very fact that you're trying to at least take responsibility and raise your child with love makes you a wonderful human being. (Maybe your friends feel just as overwhelmed by the fact that you have a baby as you are, and need some time before things can get back to normal, or maybe they are lousy friends who do not deserve your friendship. In any case, you should learn to take things as they are and as they come, and who knows, you may feel better :))
Talking about Depression with others.
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ToriGrace >> 22/09/2014 9:07pm
I need some advice. My girlfriend feels helpless when I feel really down or have a breakdown and I need to know how to talk to her without freaking her out. How do i explain how I'm feeling and what I am struggling through while making her understand that these are just feelings?
tripley >> 03/10/2014 11:08pm
People with no depression may sometimes not understand what you're going through. How is your girlfriend freaking out? When you start saying that these are feelings, you can't just downplay it, these feelings are important too, and maybe all you need from her is her support. :) Depression is not just a mood that can be turned off, and I'm sure you two can manage to defeat it together
Im so so depressed. my mums making it so much worse.
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shaelucy >> 15/09/2014 7:21pm
my mum is only talking to me if it is to order me to do things- or being paranoid about everything I do and watching over me like a hawk, thinking if I have some privacy, I will be doing somethiing I shouldnt. I used to keep a diary which she constantly read so I had to give it up. When im not here she goes through everything so i cannot keep any private possesions. She makes me tell her my phone passcode so she can look through me messages, my facebook password and my email password. I was crying today because she was being horrible to me, she said to me 'stop being such a pathetic girl and having to cry about everything. grow up and toughen the hell up'. i find it so unfair... she knows i was diagnosed with depression at the doctors... she knows how hard gettng through the school day is for me.. she knows i find a 12 hour day hard.. yet she still treats me with no respect or trust and sometimes cruely. I dont know what to do. I dont have my family support anymore. she says i need to do much better at school and everything in general- though i try so so hard. i dont know what to do. I m so depressed
eccentricrabbit >> 16/09/2014 4:41pm
Has she always treated you like that? Invading your privacy the way she is currently doing? :(
shaelucy >> 16/09/2014 8:05pm
yes, gotten much worse during my teenage years though.
tripley >> 03/10/2014 11:00pm
Maybe she is just trying to make sure you are not getting more depressed? Mothers tend to worry a lot and overstep their boundaries, maybe you should discuss this with her, and see how it goes? :)